Waaaay too long!

Phew! Feels good to get back on this thing. I have a night to myself and time to blog.

Where do I begin?

How about my job..I'm sure you all are just DYING to know what work has been like ;] Haha. Well, in that case, let me tell you!

I started last Thursday working at the front desk at the hotel right next to where I live. It's called Perry's and it's El Caribe's sister property. So far I'm loving it. My first day I went to a driving range to learn how to play golf (not a normal activity as I found out the following day) and the general manager bought us all lunch. Yumm. I didn't do much when we got back except begin to answer phones and meet the people I'd be working with.

Since I started, I've worked every day but Sunday. I love it there. The people are great and the work is awesome. The only thing I would change is having to stand all day. Talk about needing a foot massage! These puppies kill!! Haha, but that's ok.

I'm having a hard time wanting to be accepted, though. I'm firm in where I stand in my faith..but when it comes to talking about it, I'm more likely to just answer questions than be bold and speak openly on my own. I'm trying, but it's hard. I think a lot of people think Christians are lame and don't have fun. That's not true, it's just different fun. The thing is though, I don't know how to tell people that their lifestyle doesn't fulfill when they ask me if I've ever tried it and my response is "no." Saying "because I just know" isn't good enough for them. How do I share the greatest gift with them without sounding forceful like every other Christian they've probably ever heard of/experienced in their life? I have to be bold and trust that the Spirit will take control of my words and their hearts. Pray for boldness. And pray for change. Our God is big and He is able to bring people to Himself.

Also, ya'll..I'm feeling a little discouraged at the moment. This blog is awesome reflection for me, as I've said before, and looking back on the week, I feel like I've been trying to pour out a lot of myself and not the Lord. I just feel empty and sad. I'm currently sitting on the balcony of my seventh story room overlooking the ocean, a small basketball court, and a pool. I'm listening to little kids playing, a basketball bouncing, and the waves of the ocean crashing. It's peaceful..but my heart isn't. What is it about Satan that allows us to believe one moment that we have the joy of the Lord within us, and then the next minute think that it has been stripped away before our eyes. Oh, the ways of the devil. I'm just in one of those sad moods. But God is good and He has greatly blessed me! Pray that I will cling to Him for strength and put on the armor of God every day!


I cannot believe Jordan and Krystal get married in 8 days!! (well technically 7 cause it's Friday NIGHT) I'm excited to see them get married! WOOO!!! What great people :] I'm also really excited to see my wonderful boyfriend who I miss incredibly. I've been going through random spells where I just start crying cause I miss him in my life. Not being able to hug him is real hard for me. But only one more week!! Yess!! Pray for the Lord to keep protecting our relationship as I know it's going to be hard to see him and then have to turn around and leave for another 6 weeks..but it'll be good! (Also, little side note, pray for Garrett's future :] )

Ok, I know this blog was ALLL over the place. Sorry. I'm tired from getting up early every day and going to bed late. Tomorrow I have to work and miss the social that everyone on project is doing..which stinks..but pray for the boldness to speak truth into the lives of my co-workers.

That's all for tonight. This one was more of my feelings that anything. I'll try to be more diligent in updating more frequently. Thanks for everyone who wrote me letters this week! Ya'll are amazing!! Keep it up!! I love getting mail! Love you all!!